I love laughter, except when milk comes out of my nose.

A lot has happened since I last posted. I know that's the standard way to start any post, but really, so much has happened, I feel like a different person.

I guess one of the biggest things would be the stuff with my dad. I don't want to put in to many details, but basically, Thursday night about two weeks ago, my dad came down from his room and sat on the couch. My mom went and talked to him and then she came rushing through the living room, "your dad needs to go to the emergency room now" and gets her coat. My dad walks through and she's like "John, take an aspirin". It's hard to explain in words how I felt at that moment. In my mind, the only conclusion I could reach was that my dad was having a heart attack. It was like my whole childhood came crashing down around me. All of the wonder of one day becoming an adult and all of my beliefs about getting older being awesome just totally fell through. I think the main thing that made the whole situation so hard to comprehend was the fact that, when you're a kid, you think your parents are invincible. It's not like I didn't know that before this happened, but never before has it been so thouroghly shoved in my face. I couldn't just pretend like it wasn't true. I just didn't know what to do. I think I paced my living room for like a half hour and then I tried to call people but it was late and it took me a long time to get a hold of anyone. I did finally, and it helped so much, so thanks again.

Well, my dad is fine. He did have heart troubles but it wasnt' a heart attack. It was rather serious, but it wasn't something they couldn't deal with. He's doing a lot better now, and I am to, but it was just one of those eye-opening, trust in God, because you can't control what's happening sort of things.

The next big thing would have to be Choral Fest. It was in Michigan this year. I had such an amazing experience. We drove up Thursday and went to our host families. We stayed with this amazing couple. They've been married fifty years and they were talking to us about their marriage and they don't fight. They were saying how they have disagreements, but they just aren't important and wow, even now the things they said just amaze me. They were wonderful. The actual festival was awesome. I met so many amazing people from all over the country. I have so many new friends and they are all so great. People at that thing really sang out, I could not believe how loud and good people sang. No one at this thing was afraid to express in their music how they really felt about God like they are at school a lot of the time. The sacred concert on Sunday made me feel so incredible. I felt so close to God and to the wonderful Christians around me. I have never before felt such an amazing spiritual high. It was just, even now, I can't really put it into decent English. It was a huge highlight in my life.

It's funny how I think through these things and I know what's happening, but when I try to type them out, they seem so insignificant. I mean those two events are like the ultimate low and the ultimate high in my life, and they sound so commonplace. The mind is an amazing place that it can comprehend such vast amounts of emotion.

I guess I'm going to leave it at that. I had a great day at work, and I'm ready to go to bed now, so I love you and I'll post again soon.