Forget what we're told, before we get to old. Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

So today, I waited on the guy who I took my driver's test with. I was so nervous. I must have checked and rechecked my bill nine times. I mean, I guess that was kind of stupid. It's not like he can take my liscense away if I give him cream of brocoli instead of chicken dumpling soup, but still, it was really weird.

Also, today I baby-sat and a bunch of the neighbor kids came over. There were 6 kids total and it was so fun because they all came and had a snack and juice. They all sat around the table and had awesome kid conversations. I loved it.

There really isn't much for me to say. I just made a post, even though it was useless. Oh, last night my dad, and my sister, and I watched Hello Dolly! Musicals always make me want to skip and wear fance clothes, so I did. I got out my really old yellow party dress and my gloves and I skipped over to the tv. It was fun.

A Capella tomorrow. It's the first one of the year. Hopefully all goes well.

Tootles!

Meg Ryan

Today, I feel like Meg Ryan in You've Got Mail. I'm wondering if my small life is what I want to be doing or if I'm just not brave enough to try something different. I'm probably to young to be having such thoughts, but still. If not for me, my family would probably be living halfway across the country and everything would be different. It's probably a dangerous thing to start examining your life on what could have been, but you just wonder, but as Meg says, "I'm not looking for answers, I just want to send this cosmic question into the void."

Teen-aged angst, music euphoria, and psychic powers all rolled into one. Sounds like that new teen-aged psych, comedy, thriller that's coming out.

I finally got a new job. I'm really excited about it because they were looking for exactly the hours I was hoping to work. So now I'm a waitress, instead of a nanny. Next summer, I'll probably do both if I can get it to work out. So whoot, I can work. I'm kind of worried about working to much and not having a social life, so if I start doing that, please let me know. Also, Jenna totally has the future of me figured out. If I'm worried about something, she'll tell me what will happen, and it does. For examples, my interview, weekend in Milwaukee, and so on, it's very weird/useful.

Recently, I've really rediscovered the joy of writing my own music. For a long time I've just been learning Ben Folds stuff and working on classical and church solos and I haven't done any writing. All of those things are great, but Evan took most of the Ben Folds books and I've learned all of the other things that I wanted to learn, so now I don't have anything to work on. So, I started writing. I'm working on one write now that is currently nameless, but I think I will actually finish. It's loosely based on something Pastor Clark once said that really stuck in my mind. The things he said are in the refrain and the verses are more my thoughts about some stuff and how I've kind of felt about some things recently. If I could just figure out the refrain.

Blake's blog post title made me remember how much I love Perfect Situation so no I'm listening to it and it's making me happy. Thank God for YouTube.

I went to the game last night. Lakeside won, but it was quite the experience. I always forget that Kristina will attempt to fix things as soon as possible when I tell her how things are going. This is normally great, but sometimes a little problematic. She did that twice yesterday. Oh well, I still love her. I had a pretty good time. Sydnie was there, which was cool. I was glad of that.

Well, that was your frienly update for the week. Have a good one.

Steel Magnolias

I'm home sick right now. It's weird to write a post in the middle of the day, but I guess I just sort of feel like it right now because I just read a bunch of other people's post. I just finished watching Steel Magnolias. What a silly movie. I hate it, but I love it. It makes me cry every time. I thought maybe today, I'd get through it, but no, every time. It's the only movie that makes me cry and I watch it every time I'm sick. I hate it but it's so good.

I'm finally settled into school and it'll be good. Sydnie's birthday was on Tuesday. It was a really fun day for all of us. I think she really liked everything that happened, which was the plan.

School is going a lot better. I think that first week just scared me. All the changes were so, well different. Adriane is gone now and we didn't get a chance to get coffee, but we talked on the phone a little. I have a new swing choir partner and it is going much better, still some things to work out, but I definately like going to practice now. I'm a little more settled with friends although things at home are a little crazy.

Also, there are some cool things coming up. Concerts and birthdays and all sorts of fun stuff.

I guess this is kind of pointless. If I were at school I'd be in Spanish 3, taking a quiz or analyzing Tom's shirts. So, have a good day everyone.

bye now

Just wanna be liked, just wanna be funny, looks like the joke's on me.

It's been awhile since I've posted and the last one was quite miserable, so at least I won't have to much to do to better my last post, not that it ever works to better your last post, it all depends on what sort of a writing mood I'm in. Anyhow, I don't think a catch up post for the days I've missed is really a good idea for this one so I thought I would talk about my family a little, or a lot, we'll see how it goes.

To start off, I love them, every single one. I am so incredibly blessed to have them. I mean, I hear about families where things are alright, but no one is really that close and it just makes me all the more thankful. We laugh so much, they are all hilarious people. This summer while camping we decided that we should market Beck family camping as a diet plan and call it "Laugh Your Way to Flat Abs with the Becks." It was just silly, but so true, my sides hurt for three days straight with those people. At the same time, they can be so helpful and caring. I mean, Charles, that kid gets me through some really tough stuff and expects nothing for it, plus he invited, not just me, but my friends, who he's never met to his apartment. He and Michael, are my book gurus. John Steinbeck, Kafka, Kurt Vonegut, and more, all came from them.

Emily. She is the oldest of the three Minesota Becks. She's 11 and she's such a cool person. She loves reading, so whenever she comes we talk about books and I usually give her a couple of mine. She's just fascinating, great imagination. Smart. I really like talking to her.

So those are just a couple of them, maybe sometime I'll talk about more, but really, they are wonderful people and so influential in my life.

I realized today, that I have beat over 1, 000 games of FreeCell. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I think it's okay that I've beat them, but bad that I have the game numbers of the ones I've beaten in a Word file in numeric order.

Hmmm...