Who were you talking to, Anna? Uh, that was Bilbo, Dad. What's his real name? I can't remember. I met him in band or at a football game or something.

So today, I was at Blake's and we were playing Landed and then we got done and we didn't play anymore because a whole bunch of people had showed up and we just didn't play anymore, not actually sure why. So I just sort of went and sat on the couch in their basement and watched all these people play guitar and pool and other stuff that you can do down there. As I'm sitting there I realize that I only know four people in the room. Sydnie, Blake, Evan, Phil(who I haven't ever actually talked to), John(I don't think he knows me). I guess that's five but you can't count John. It was just weird because all of those people clearly knew Blake and Sydnie well but I didn't know them and if Blake and Sydnie like them, that's good enough for me. I kind of think that maybe it's to late to meet all these people because 1) I am horrible at remebering names and I always make up nicknames for people to remeber them by(Bilbo is coming to mind) and 2) I'm not a cool person and I don't really have anything that makes me unique or whatever, that would make people want to talk to me. But I really want to meet all these people and possibly be friends with them because they're probably great people and I really like the majority of people.

Then later on after the basketball game tonight, I was standing in this group of people who I know by name but don't really know except for one person who I sort of would rather not know but that's a completely different story. I might as well had not been there because I'm pretty sure I said nothing and I felt completely out of touch with everything, and I felt sort of small and alone. So I just sort of stood there until I left. Obviously. So I don't know what to do about that. I can't really figure it out. I'm not really sure why I care now. I suppose it's because I've sort of gotten more attached to certain friends and they're the ones who know the people I don't know. I don't think it's some quest to become popular because I know that will never happen anyways so it would be stupid to try. I also have this incredible fear of people not liking me. It bothers me when people don't because I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I don't know. I'll think about it later.

Other than that there isn't much to report. Oh, intramurals today, we lost, wow big surprise. It was a lot of fun though, I enjoyed it. I didn't actually score any points but that could be because I only had the ball like three times, but whatever, we have a couple more games so maybe I will in those. Other than that, can't think of anything. And so it goes and so it goes and you're the only one who knows. If you can name that song you're amazing and I will bake you cookies or brownies or something.