When desperate static beats the silence up, a quiet truth to calm you down.

I read through everybody else's blogs before I got to mine. Here's what I have to say about them. They are all unique and brilliant. I didn't see any spelling errors, which is always a good thing and I've also noticed that my friends don't use any ridiculous internet abreviations which makes me happy. Sydnie writes things that get me every time. She's amazing and I hate it when she's unhappy. Blake hasn't written in his in awhile but the stuff he wrote around his birthday and prior to that is pretty great. He's cooler than he thinks. I don't think Evan knows I read his, but I do. He's always kind of hard on himself in those, although he did talk about how he's amazing on drums which is true and it's about time he figured it out. Although he talks about how he's bad at piano, which isn't true, and how I'm good at it, another thing that's not true. He always says really deep things and I haven't really known him long enough to always know what he means, but he often says some pretty profound things. Up until I had one and I read other people's I never understood why people had these things but now that I do it's starting to make more sense. Funny how that works.

Sydnie wasn't at school today. It's weird because for pretty much all of freshman year we weren't that good of friends, but somewhere this year we just sort of realized how much we had in common and now I sort of depend on her being there. Like I said before she wasn't at school and I kept thinking, I have to show this to Sydnie or I have to tell Sydnie that and then I remembered she wasn't there and it was weird. It's weird how people you see every day leave such a hole when they are gone. She's an incredible friend. I don't know what I would do without her.

An update on what I have been doing lately. Piano. That's about it. I'm up to practicing at least an hour, sometimes two every day. I just have so much to learn. My WSMA piece is a Haydn sonata and it's I think, 8 pages long, I actually really like it though, but it's hard because I haven't had a piano teacher in awhile and stuff that a teacher would just be able to tell me I have to research and figure out on my own. I'm hoping to find someone soon. I also have Ben Folds. Ben Folds is going to make a piano player out of me yet. It's so amazing to play but it's a challenge. He writes in keys that most people don't even think about, an example being Late, one of my favorites, it's in D minor. No one writes in D minor and does a good job of it, but Ben Folds does. Technically, some of his stuff is beyond me and I just, I don't know. Right now I'm working on Fired and Landed, I'm memorizing Late, and I just recently started Selfless, Cold, and Composed, which is the first Five song I've played so it's been interesting. It's an incredible song though. When Blake gets the bass in there it's going to be fantastic. And I always play better when Evan is drumming. I'm also working on a Straylight Run song, who I had never heard of before this and I don't really know anything about now except for this one song. It's pretty neat though. I'm working on writing some stuff to, potentially to play with Blake and Evan but they don't know it yet. That might not work on. I'll have to wait and see. I don't really know what they want to do as far as music. They're both in other bands so I can't expect them to just play whenever and whatever I want. I'll have to talk to them about that.

Upcoming events are the Motion City Soundtrack concert on February 16, and the baritone party on the 17, probably.

I can be such a jerk sometimes. I think people just assme that I'm nice but seriously, I'm not. Awhile ago I said some stuff that I shouldn't have about a person behind their back and they heard and I have yet to apologize. It was nasty stuff to. I insulted them about something that I really knew nothing about. I don't even know why I did it. I'm just a jerk. I don't want to be that kind of person. I hate people like that and yet I'm a complete hypocrite because I am that person. GRRRRRRRR.